Last night, we finished running through the rest of the Gesualdo movements, and went through some of the previous ones. It doesn't sound strange to me any more. It sounds like Gesualdo. Which it ought to have all along, given how long I've had these recordings and been listening to them, but singing the pieces is totally different. You have to listen in a different way.
We made some music last night. For a few bars, here and there, that magic thing happened where I was not in the room any more, just suspended inside the web of harmony, unaware of my own voice, not thinking of anything really, just singing. The trick is keeping that going for the whole piece, including the repeats. My powers of concentration are not that incredible, alas, but I try. Even a few moments of that is incredibly precious, which is why I'm writing it here, so I won't forget.